ok. people have been asking me if i am ok. well.. i was ok for a week after that day. and tada.. once again.. i am SINGLE AND VERY AVAILABLE all of a sudden after a night. haha.. dun worry ppl.. i know i said i am ok and working things out.. me and him was ok.. but yeah.. SHIT HAPPENS and it happened. we are not ok anymore. never will be again. i accepted it. this time i will not be crying. YET. yeah right. :(
i simply am ok. cause it all ended in doubts and so many questions in my head. yet. yes.. strange eh.. when i was crying like arse last week and i am trying hard not to cry so bad this time.. think it'll work? i hope so. yes.. btw.. i hope. Hopes are what keep us going.
He will be happier this way being the way he is. hating everyone. (if you hate all might as well hate me. it'll be easier.) i still don't get it and like he say. i will NEVER get it. i love everyone too much. to me.. love is all around. if u hate everyone and u say u love me. that's BuLLSHiT!
breaking promises to me.. it's ok. dun worry on that. anyway guys always do that. He did that. and you have to do it too. why bother to call when you know there's nothing more to talk about. Let this be. The Final Goodbye.this is how you want it. and i followed. i will learn not to cry. when tears fall i will use my hands to wipe it. DUH!
when i think of us. i will stop. when i think of loving you. i wil stop. soon, what we have will just be memories.
as for now.. i am just going to make sure i study real hard for my exams. damn bad feeling i am not going to make it anymore. sigh.. just needed someone to encourage and be there to do that. is it that difficult?
going to start understanding and enjoy my singlehood once again.
yeah ppl. Elaine's back into the dating world.
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