why is it so difficult not to think about the future? why is it that we have to part even when we are in love? why is it so? why are our directions different? why am i tearing so much. i have no idea why. my eyes are puffy. my nose is blocked. i didn't know i will feel this way ever again. yet u did it. ain't u proud.. you say it's easier now than later. you said you still love me. i know that. and yet. how can i move on after i just did from the previous one? it took me a year and u came along. yet now before i know it. you're gone. it was a teary goodbye. with lots of reluctance. yet at the end we know we have to put down the phone and say good night.
i will miss all the times we had. times at borders with you on yr obssession. times outside borders looking at you on yr guitar. times at harry dancing with you. times at yr performance. times at yr place for dinner. times playing ard with you and shaun. times we caught our first movie together. times when we counted our many first times together. times at everywhere we been to. i miss you already. miss the countless nights on the phone with you. nights with you waiting for me to be home from party. talks with me sounding so drunk. phone calls early in the morning. waking me up just to say i love you. calling me now and then to ask me how much i love you. the silly voices you make. watching sunset. listening to jack johnson. taking silly pics of us. i can never stop talking bout us.
why can't we be like jack johnson song and be together? why must we be so different? i shld not be selfish and tie u to spore when i know u won't be happy. it's so difficult when we know we will never have the same goals and aims. i hate to know we have to part yet it happened. i hate to be saying that. i hate to be knowing we are in love yet can't be together. i hate to know i am the best you ever had. i love being yr only grace. i love to hear you talk. i love to see you smile. i love to look at yr face (the mum's side). i love you. i will always remember you. thanks you for teaching me to love again. thank you for beinging me smiles and laughter for 3 months. thanks you for everything chris. i will miss you so much.
don't worry for me. cos i know you don't want me to worry for you. work's starting soon for you. don't be so stressed up. it'll be fast. time will fly and soon. we'll be memories etched in our hearts. i wish the talk tonight never happened. yet i know it will happen sooner or later. just a matter of time. chris. you will always be that someone special in my life.
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