totally lost half the battle

OMG! i have no one to blame for myself. i only got a freaking 54 over 100 for my stats mid term paper. geesh. my lowest scoring for ALL my modules. even dreadful geo is not that bad when i have B average for my reports. ARGH!! what the hell. it always just has to happen. whenever i do not like the lecturer or the tutor i end up doing real bad for that module... reminds me of chemistry all bcos of ng soon aik. PUI! my god. totally stopped my engine to continue studying. to even get a B for my stats now i got to do like 80/100 for my final. my god.. that's just to get a B!! can u imagine. i am going hysterical. but the thing is i expected it to be this bad. hahaha.. *bleh* i just wanna blame myself. simply gone i can see for my stats. and i am so not ready for the exams. it's like i have been studying and doing my notes. but i also get damn sleepy all the time. i hate it to sleep but i just gets sleepy in the afternoon. i just woke up from my 1 1/2 power nap. hahaha.. lazy right? *yawnz*

time is slipping by me so so FAST! it's already sunday and on saturday my FA paper. what if what if.. the feeling of have i finished studying? is there anything i left out? my.. it's so pressurizing it gets so tight on me when i sleep at night. i have been dreaming of my tests even in exams. hahaha.. power.. but yea. i really pray for peace in my mind and full concentration. is it that difficult. sigh.

it's time for me to start looking at my books once again. enjoy having fun ppl when i am busy studying. sobz sobz.. enjoy on my behalf.