happy-ness from within

wow. i finally came home today not in the dark. and i saw the sunset. haha. bright and i was home. i suddenly so missed home. coming home for dinner was such a nice feeling. just had my dinner. home cooked by mummy dearest. YUMMY!!! she knew i was coming home for dinner and specially cooked new dishes and my fave sichuan soup. *one tear drop* so loved. =)

guess in my busy-ness i often neglect my family the most. daddy and mummy. sigh. but it's always like that. taking those closest to you for granted. sometimes you just wonder. you talk to your friends so much more than to your parents. like come online. and on msn. wah lau. can talk till like how "early" in the morning. but with my parents. it's always. "busy busy busy... " short answers. never putting the effort to talk more. it got so bad lately that one day my dad actually called me on my phone to talk to me. cos i haven't seen him for many many days. haha. that is when i realise. shit damn it. i have been away for TOO LONG.

let me learn to appreciate them my old folks before time passes so fast that i have forgotten that they are growing old. let me be able to spend more time with them.

anyhoos. this post is just an update. of my busy busy days. work kinda suck. and i decided not to lament about it over here. office politics. human relations. bootlickers. argh. they are everywhere. and i so cannot stand it anymore. the bitchy-ness is coming into me. oh man. i better stop. if not it will probably flood my blog. RAWRR. BTW as i am typing this post, i am also doing work brought back from office! ah. so you see this is how bad work is. period. *zip*

i am so dissappointed!!! no choice weekend this month cos not enough participants. so my retreat plans are CANCELLED. BAH! where now? where to find my answers? what am i going to do with so many choices or how should i make my choice. seriously. i am losing it. i find it so difficult these days. when i hear model answers. i switch off. i prefer my alone time with HIM. yet i seem to have lost myself in the secular world. not spending that little time with HIM anymore. where do i see myself in months to come? i really have no idea.

results are coming out this saturday. and damn. i wish i will never know my results. kinda scared. haha. should i even spend time thinking bout it. i just hope it will be better than last sem. which is actually not very difficult since last sem was like really really bad. heh. i dun know. i can just pray now. =)

i am so tired of the emotions i am feeling and getting. i am so weary. lift me up lord. strengthen me. let me not be afraid. let me learn to face myself truthfully. not hiding away from any emotions and feelings. seeking for you is getting kinda far at times. but i shall still search. cos you have once showed me how wonderful you are. so hold me close now. really really close. as i am feeling lost and alone at times. i sometimes do forget to thank you too. so i thank you for everything that has happened. thank you for making me learn through all the experiences. =)

anyways. before i go off to concentrate on my work...

below are some random pics to sorta tell my busy days and to update june!!! here are the pics as promised dear!! =) miss you.

the "couple" phones! lachicko and mua W810i. DAMN preeeetty.. *winkz*

and yup i brought the donuts back for the lovelies.

but only claud appreciates. as you can see from the picture.see claudia is ALWAYS the best. MUACKS!

look at raymond's head!!! how big! haha. da tou da tou. xia yu bu chou.

and as usual. mr lachicko. being mad =) but i still love you! haha.

that's us. the usual four. love love.

and i got this pic from chick! and wow. so much lovely memories my darlings!! we must go on a trip together again!!

and of cos the long awaited...
PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!

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totally AWE-SOME!

it was also magic's birthday party! and definitely a fun night!

it was kinda a crazy week.

our FOC meetings.

besides working. and working. and more working. we been cam-whoring in office.

my long awaited sentosa day!! woohoo..

we ended the day with YUMMY THAI EXPRESS.
and i know.
june you must be cursing and swearing at us now..
but you know what...
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we still had lotsa fun!!

*opps* mean! haha.

but WE REALLY MISSED YOU!!
waiting for you to come HOME! and SENTOSA TOGETHER!!
MUACKS!

ps: we are going sentosa again!! this saturday.
*that's if everyone gets back to me soon.*
lachicko already said SET! so RAY and CLAUD! get back to me!!

before i go off. let's look at what is up for the next few months..
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