Love is more than just...

This new love has taught me many things.

Patience
Giving
Sacrifices
Love
And most importantly...
Trust

It is really difficult at times when you realise you are so far apart from the one you love. It questions the reality that i am living in. A reality where stereotypes of certain relationships are fixed. A reality where people don't view your relationship to work out. A reality where you could possibly lose yourself to. A reality that makes you lose the dream you once had. Is the reality chasing after me? Reality sets in when external voices or factors become louder.

One thing I could at least be grateful for would be the invention of technology. Without technology, I couldn't imagine how my dream with T would have started. Thou technology would fail on us on certain days. I am still grateful for the days that t was working. But how will this ever last forever? It will end someday somehow. And perhaps that is what frightens me sometimes. The sudden loss of something/someone whom you hold so closely and dearly will be taken away. Without a sound. Without a sign. And there is no one to blame besides fate.

Will our fate run out? Questions which only God knows and perhaps have already planned and willed. I only know I will not give up until i have put on a good fight. As each passing day with T being so far away, I begin to start thinking about the future more seriously. Finally realising the different choices or decisions I make now could eventually affect who or where I would be in years to come. I don't know how long it will take before the final call will come. But before the call comes for me to make that final decision, I will just do what I can within my limits here. Finding the many doors to the things or the dream we want can be quite difficult. Not knowing what to do next could be daunting at times.

But T never fails to try to make me feel reassured. He never fails to bring that smile across my face when I worry.
So then, I knew I am trusting T already. =)

Ich liebe dich mein Schatz