i thought i wanted to revamp this blog yet i am back to the same blog with the same skin
i thought .. so many i thought yet i am lazy to move on and continue.
so i am back to this lonely blog of mine. to add in some life here and there. to allow myself to speak to myself in a way. i guess a place for me to put all my random thoughts together.
how is everyone? my official entry after let's see.. 4 months? almost?? well.. this just show that time passes really fast. and to think back. so many things have happened within the time that i haven't been blogging. especially my spiritual life. i can never imagine myself talking like what i am now. but i am. isn't that contradicting. guess things just work out regardless how.
should i do a recount of my days for the past 4 months? let me try to recall. oh dope. getting old can't remember. haha.. but i will just talk randomly of everything then.
i can only recall my days as PACKED. but without regrets. there were so many things that i was doing. from school work which this sem totally sucked cos there were no projects. eh i am not wierd ok. projects are so much better than mid terms and exams can.. argh! anyhoos it's over. and in school. i also started being more active in taking part in competitions. first the nus internal business case competition. that with God's grace - our team (andrew, lyanna, marc and me) all catholic team!! got second. it was totally an experience. besides the point of getting the prize money. the time spent doing the case. the practices the slides and just the fellowship while doing the case was something money couldn't buy. i totally thank God for that period of time for being there. and since then. many other competitions started attracting my attention for them. and i did. joined did not win. but well.. they are all going to be valuable experience. school modules seemed boring. they were starting to scare me. especially after seeing my mid term results. oh my god. i really freaked out. i started to doubt my capacity in doing the major i all along thought i am gg to do. up till now as i type i know in my heart what i want to do. yet i am afraid.
enuff of my scary semester which have ended after my exams. which i have totally no confidence in doing well. i just hope next semseter will be better =)
besides being busy with my studies.. there was an important change in my life this semester. the duty of serving God. through my lovely "family" in CSS business faculty CG. it really changed my life. the way i look at things. the way i look at life. throughout this semester. i grew a lot. learning from people in the community. learning from seniors who shared their experience and most importantly of the love God has for each and everyone of us.
i really can't finish saying all within one posting. the things that CSS has done. the events that passed. the sharings we have. the dinner time and fellowship after CG every friday. the times i lost and found. all of this. my memories of 2006. a fantastic year.
there are so much that happened and i was never alone. i was never lonely. thou there were still times i felt alone especially.... but i know He is there. God is there to look and be the one to hold me close. the comfort that i learnt this year is really so much. i chanced upon my old old blog. the one where there were so much pain. so much tears and so much scars. i realise in that blog i actually prayed alot and thanked God even for the pain. i guess my relationship with God started when i lost the other. i have found a better relationship!
i always belive that pictures speak a thousand words. so i shall not write anymore for now and just share the days that i have among the pics that i am gg to post.
my lovely "family" in CSS
My lovely darlings at home with the christmas tree
before i end today's posting. let me share this:
One night a man had a dream. He dreamed
he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed two sets of
footprints in the sand: one belonging
to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of
his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very
lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he
questioned the LORD about it:
"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow
you, you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life,
there is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when
I needed you most you would leave me."
The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."
and i thank you Lord for always being the one to carry me when i am in pain and suffering. Amen
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