today. is a.. i can't describe. lots of feelings and things going through my head.
the most important lesson i learnt today is from the story of Nativity. it totally brought a whole new meaning of the Holy Family to me. the strong faith Mary had. the fear and yet believing.
the movie brings not only us closer to God but also showed us the more human side of the Holy Family - Joseph and Mary. and honestly, tears were welling in my eyes. haha. especially parts where Mary had to accept the will and the fear upon saying yes and not knowing what will happen.
one part that striked me the most is the part where Joseph and Mary both admitted that they were afraid. they were afraid. even the Father and Mother of Our Lord Jesus were afraid. why not us? when Joseph said (para-phrasing here) "What can i teach him?" it shows us the fear even in today lives. the fear in us to take on any role or duty. need not be in the religious meaning but also in daily lives esp in school when u are told to be in charge of a certain project. isn't the fear there? i can totally feel for when he said this line. the fear of not being able to provide. the fear of what can i bring to my CG? but look at what Joseph did. To me, that is what every man and a father in a family should be. just to be like Joseph in his actions. his strong faith that the child is the Messiah. how he brought Mary to safety and how he bear the hunger to feed the donkey (thou look funny but it showed his love and care for his wife) and the pain on his feet.
so... i have decided. the next (if i ever will have) boyfriend have to pass the benchmark of Joseph. heh. not easy guys. not easy.
so you see my dearies.. how we should actually believe and hold on in difficult periods. it took me really long to believe and hold on. so i thank you lord for even having me back in your arms. =)
to end off my beautiful day of reflecting on the power of God's love, i decided to do something.
here's to you.
you know who you are. and i know you are waiting to hear a reply from me. and i just need you to know it has been a very long time. and honestly just like your best friend. i want to move on with my life now. a better life. both her and i are in the best times of our lives now. and i am truly happy for him and her now. thou the hurts remain and the scars are there. but time has proven to heal everything. let's just make peace not war. times i have told myself i should just take the first step to reconcile. but it never worked. maybe this can help to be the stepping stone. pls let her know that i bear no more grudges against her. but towards him there is still. cos i know that when those things happen. it is no fault of ours. it just comes. and tell her not to worry cos she is already out of my hate list. he is still somewhere in the list thou. haha.
to be frank i am really pissed bout how childish things are becoming. i just wish the very best for you and i know she will hear of this from you. =)
thank you for being the messenger.
Dear Lord,
i come to you tonight in prayer. to seek for your guidance and help. your help for me to learn to forgive and forget. to take on this journey of forgiving. Lord, remember the days when my tears flow endlessly into the morning and it as you who wiped them all away. you picked me up and led me back to you. you taught me patience and what is love all over again. thou my pains are still here lord and you know them. i lift my pains to you. take them away. today you made me face the pain again. to remind me that i have this journey of forgiveness. i ask for strength to face all these. years have passed. and Lord, i thank you for being the only One here for me always. Lord i ask of you to bless those who have hurted me. and those whom i have hurt. just as your prayer goes lord. forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sinned against us.
Amen.
the most important lesson i learnt today is from the story of Nativity. it totally brought a whole new meaning of the Holy Family to me. the strong faith Mary had. the fear and yet believing.
the movie brings not only us closer to God but also showed us the more human side of the Holy Family - Joseph and Mary. and honestly, tears were welling in my eyes. haha. especially parts where Mary had to accept the will and the fear upon saying yes and not knowing what will happen.
one part that striked me the most is the part where Joseph and Mary both admitted that they were afraid. they were afraid. even the Father and Mother of Our Lord Jesus were afraid. why not us? when Joseph said (para-phrasing here) "What can i teach him?" it shows us the fear even in today lives. the fear in us to take on any role or duty. need not be in the religious meaning but also in daily lives esp in school when u are told to be in charge of a certain project. isn't the fear there? i can totally feel for when he said this line. the fear of not being able to provide. the fear of what can i bring to my CG? but look at what Joseph did. To me, that is what every man and a father in a family should be. just to be like Joseph in his actions. his strong faith that the child is the Messiah. how he brought Mary to safety and how he bear the hunger to feed the donkey (thou look funny but it showed his love and care for his wife) and the pain on his feet.
so... i have decided. the next (if i ever will have) boyfriend have to pass the benchmark of Joseph. heh. not easy guys. not easy.
so you see my dearies.. how we should actually believe and hold on in difficult periods. it took me really long to believe and hold on. so i thank you lord for even having me back in your arms. =)
to end off my beautiful day of reflecting on the power of God's love, i decided to do something.
here's to you.
you know who you are. and i know you are waiting to hear a reply from me. and i just need you to know it has been a very long time. and honestly just like your best friend. i want to move on with my life now. a better life. both her and i are in the best times of our lives now. and i am truly happy for him and her now. thou the hurts remain and the scars are there. but time has proven to heal everything. let's just make peace not war. times i have told myself i should just take the first step to reconcile. but it never worked. maybe this can help to be the stepping stone. pls let her know that i bear no more grudges against her. but towards him there is still. cos i know that when those things happen. it is no fault of ours. it just comes. and tell her not to worry cos she is already out of my hate list. he is still somewhere in the list thou. haha.
to be frank i am really pissed bout how childish things are becoming. i just wish the very best for you and i know she will hear of this from you. =)
thank you for being the messenger.
Dear Lord,
i come to you tonight in prayer. to seek for your guidance and help. your help for me to learn to forgive and forget. to take on this journey of forgiving. Lord, remember the days when my tears flow endlessly into the morning and it as you who wiped them all away. you picked me up and led me back to you. you taught me patience and what is love all over again. thou my pains are still here lord and you know them. i lift my pains to you. take them away. today you made me face the pain again. to remind me that i have this journey of forgiveness. i ask for strength to face all these. years have passed. and Lord, i thank you for being the only One here for me always. Lord i ask of you to bless those who have hurted me. and those whom i have hurt. just as your prayer goes lord. forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sinned against us.
Amen.
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