i did really bad

ok. this is a sudden post. one before i go to bed.

i was about to sleep and my friend gave me this website to check my results.
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as expected. i did REALLY BAD. totally BAD like never before. in my so many years of education. i have never ever done that badly before. oh geesh. what is wrong with me. but apparently, the one that i thought i am going to die for.. did better than the others! what is this..

Lord, i really have no idea where to go from now. no options out there. what should i decide to do for my major? as i look at my results. i do not really feel very upset. cos i guess i sort of expected them to be like that? i don't know what i am feeling right now. maybe the entire news of doing so badly haven't daunt upon me as of yet. if in the past, i guess i would have started crying. heh. yes that's me a cry baby. whatever you call me. i am just like that.

but now. i feel peace. cos at least i passed. thou they are low passes. i pass didn't i? should i not think in this way? i don't know. why am i feeling this way now? hmmz. i guess i have started to learn to look beyond what results meant. to me, as long as i can pass my semesters without repeating the modules again i am grateful to the Lord.

Teach me to be more accepting of what i am becoming into. Teach me to be more open to your teachings and your love. Thou it is still quite difficult to understand the reasons to why things are happening the way they are now. I pray Lord that one day i will learn to stop asking why and just accept. Amen