nothing much to say anymore. maybe i have changed.

school's starting in less than 12 hours from now. one event that i had been so looking forward to doesn't seem so much fun afterall. as it gets nearer i fear. what if my expectations are high and i fall with a loud thud.

sometimes it feels good to not think of anything. but this doesn't happen to me. my mind seems to be working 24/7. it's so tiring. so i chose to run away. whenever i hear the song on radio. i tune away. my tears no longer flow. my heart still aches. but all these will stop. i am fine my dear friends.

things have changed. life have changed. all of us have moved on and grown up. sometimes things have to be done this way to make me learn. i have learnt. and making progress.

i just want to say. don't worry ppl. life is still B-E-A-U-tiful. just that it looks a bit dark right now. i choose to believe my happy days will come when the time is right. for now. i may not be as happy like i used to be. but it doesn't mean i am not happy. just that i am trying to find the real life i can call my own. maybe this is my turning point in life? who knows?

it saddens me to know. all said were lies. all said were just comforting words. if you choose to comfort me this way. i rather be left alone. you soon leave me with no choice but to say this once again. i have eventually lost you.