Nostalgic memories

Feeling nostalgic, i went back to his blog and read the few posts when we first got together.
And I read back on how he used to love me.
The postings still gave me the same warm tingling feeling just like the first time I read it.

I Wish

I wish you were not so far away,

I wish you were near,

Right by me, here,

I wish I could find an easier way,

For me to say,

You're my dear.

I wish I could hold you close,

And have nothing to fear,

Because we'd see clear,

What it is that means the most,

We'd never be lost,

If that time was here.

I wish my nights were not so lonely,

So empty and cold,

Without you to hold,

My darling, it's you that I want only,

I wish it was easy,

For the heart to be bold.

I wish that time was not so long,

Until I can see your face,

And feel your embrace.

For you I wish to be strong,

And carry on,

I wish months were just days.

I wish these things were simple and plain,

I wish this to be true,

So we won't have to feel blue,

It would not be in vain,

My little Elaine,

Because I love you.

Tobias, June 2009

Real, genuine love that this man once had for me and that was what sold me away to him. His ability to love (at that moment). I seem to have forgotten the love he had for me when we first started and i realise as one gets too comfortable in a relationship you tend to forget the sweetness in the beginning. I know it is too late for anything now cos soon, he is starting on his new chapter of life with the Mrs and me probably on my way to moving on...But I just want to say "thank you"..

Thank you for once giving me such beautiful memories.

It's beautiful cos it hurts when you realise that love is lost.