i have clicked to this page wanting to post for many times within the week already. and yes. now finally i have that bit of time to post a rather random posting. lotsa pics will be up as well. heh.

My past 2 weeks -

family time: last last sunday - before they LEFT me to msia but by the time i post this they are actually back already. haha. ao on the sunday before they left for msia. went for breakfast with the two loved ones of mine at kovan market. and yeap as usual our fave stall for laksa and ba chor mee!! yummy!! i really miss spending mornings breakfast with them. sometimes i wish i do really am able to squeeze a bit more time to spend with them talking and laughing. before they grow old so soon. whenever they sit down quietly, it dawned upon me that they are getting old. no longer the then young parents who will run around and carry me and chasing me wherever i go. they just sit and read their papers and it's now that i realise their importance. am i too late? i really hope i am not. i pray that i learn to be a better daughter and sister.

Help me and guide me Lord.

one prayer request from me and my family:

for someone's family:

please pray for a family to have the courage and ability to cope with what is going on in the family and the courage to accept the truth that might seem so scary. regardless what the outcome is. pray that they can stick close together and face the truth with strength and confidence. and if it is really God's will let it be done upon her.

please do pray for this family esp a young girl in the family. thank you my fellow brothers and sisters.

schooldays:

huge ups and downs. but i guess He provides at the end of all. and i thank Him for that. AMEN! presentation week for the past week. in formal wear most of the week man. and actually i do enjoy dressing up to school! haha. bleah. my freedom. so shooosh. other than that. ya the usual. central lib been going there to do work more often. when first started not very sure if it was a good idea. but after a while i guess i just had to numb myself with the fact that exams are like in one week time for me! argh.no time to procastinate. *dang* it's the last week of school already. it had been a while since me marc and andrew hung out. so we did after penetential service at st teresa on tues. the service was rather long heh. but nonetheless good confession. and yes i had some answers yet not being really sure if that was the answer that i could take upon. but i am considering the answer. so.. anyhoos. we went for dinner at vivo at white dog cafe and yepz andrew being adventurous ate some black squid ink pasta. hiak! i tell u wrong decision. first few mouths were yummy but too much ewww... i guess it's like everything in life. when you have too much of
something you get sick of it. hehe.



yup this is "bo gei" andrew. thanks to his adventure with the squid qith black ink. heh.

haha. it got weird at this part when marc started touching andrew. ewww. scary
and yepz it was indeed a good fellowship and great convo! =)
we should do this more often BOYS!

it was also the last CG for the semester. i was so filled up with emotions that day. to think that it was the last. yes. the last. the love and fellowship from mydarlings in business cg. i was sad-ed. we did clearing of our cluttered cups. and look at how beautifully these two cups were emptied with our clutters. seperated beautifully into two. two cups of blue and pink. =) thank you my business cg for making this one year such a meaningful and special journey with Him.

oooo... and of cos the most impt week had just passed and yes! Our Lord has RISEN! GLORIA!! GLORIA!! this lent especially has so much more meaning for me. 40 days passed. many temptations i must say. but through all this i see Him even more. He truly is here with us as long as we hold on and believe. it signifies so much.

this year i went for easter tridum again. second year doing all three and i see more significance this year. three parishes that i went. and i must say i am so touched by His love. He who died for us and crucified on the cross. He too was a man like us. yet he took on the death that is so unjustly put upon him. and as i said with the congregation: "Crucify him! Crucify him!" my heart felt pain. why did we crucify this man whom did nothing but Love us. at times when we choose to look away from him, we crucified him. times when we choose to do so many other things that hurt him, we crucified him. yet all he said was "Father Forgive them for they do not know what they are doing." How wonderful and gracious this man's love is for us. How blessed are we to be called his children and to have him rise again on easter! to be the hope and the light for us. especiall for me. when i see those burdens that i feel adding onto my cross. the cross that i have to bear for life. a cross i did not ask for just like Jesus who did not ask for. But he chose to take it and carried with him all the way to his death. So who am i to complain about my cross. let me constantly remember He who died for us and rose up again on the third day.

and i love my CSS community.

for being the ones to journey with.
along with me in my spiritual direction to seek for him always.
Thank you guys especially this lent season to
have all these shared experiences with you guys! =)

PHEW! what a long posting with so much to say..

heh.. a semester is coming to an end. and honestly i can't wait for all to end. all to end to let me take a break that i am so looking forward to. regardless of how much objections. i need a break before i start work. and i just need to leave here. to clear my clogged up head with so much thoughts. maybe i will put them all aside after the trip. i will perhaps be changed. as long as i get my deserved break. i have some thoughts that have been zooming in and out of my head. and i just do not want to think about them. "you're just afraid" you might say. but i really don't want to. cos it is a waste of time. it's scary to know when you realise that you have been confused all this while. it is really scary. and the best part of things is that you unknowingly has decided on certain things. how strange how humans work sometimes. the topic that some of us have talked about recently got me thinking even more. the characteristics for certain things. quietly i think. quietly i put away those thoughts. the familiar answers i hear all the time yet i choose to deny the fact. the choice to contradict is still so strong. and being a weaker one, i chose to contradict. so bad that i think i am crazy. and at this point if you are still reading this part, you must be saying elaine is mad. haha. and i would say yes i am mad. BLAH!

it's now 12.50am.
i have typed this for a rather long time. haha. guess it's time to do some assignment work and perhaps skip IA seminar tmr.
heh. i shall think about it again before i sleep tonight. =)

good night dear friends who are always with me.

besties like CLAUDIA - know i am just so so away not being able to even talk sometimes but i just thank you for being there whenever i know i need someone. =) love you!!! ps: our shirts are HERE!! i emailed the address already! woohoo! new shirts to wear!

Junie - who is also another darling whom i have so missed and yet i wonder why i could never stop to have a good hearty talk for so long. so sorry dear!! will do so once holiday comes in. PROMISE!!! and yes.. all the best for your final lap! graduation!! wheee!!!

THE GUYS - ray and chick. yes yes. the missing guys in my life now. so so sorry that we have all been so busy. but i do THINK about you guys all the time! SWEAR!! so we will soon meet up! definitely earlier than claud and my bday! ANOTHER PROMISE MADE! muacks! miss you guys load

cindy and adeline! the two lovelies!! so sorry once again for being the one not turning up rather often these days. looking forward to my hols where i hope we all will be free for catching up!! take care dear ladies!! god bless!

i guess this has been a rather detail updates for those who are rather
interested in my kinda boring life. haha. so ciaoz peeps.
perhaps the next time i blog will be 26th April.
after my last paper! haha.
we shall see! muacks!