yes. it's the 6th of july. apparently he has forgotten all bout the date. great. with no expectations come no dissapointment. but as you can see.. i am dissapointed cos i had a tinsy bit of expectation given that he did called recently!!!! what the.. nevermind.. see what women mind can do to them.. turn them into emo monsters.. yes.. that's right. i am kinda feeling damn emo these two days..

i have no idea why and what is making me feel this way.. how dumb right.. it must be him. sigh.. and as i read thru my own blog as i am the only one reading.. i realise i am writing my blog in a way that it seems i am writing down like i will forget what i had done on that day.. a recap of all my days.. so wierd and yet i had been doing that.. to remind myself of what i have been up to and what is happening everyday.. perhaps it's time my blog took off in another direction already.. any suggestions? i have no idea yet. period.

as if those emo days are not bad enough.. i had to be even more emo.. being infatuated with someone whom you don't even know well enough is really damn bad. just that he knows my name and i know his name. yepz. that's all folks.. yada yada yada.. damn damn damn. wake up elaine.. he's just an eye candy..

sobz.. see.. that's how sad real life reality is to me.. and me only.. everyone around seems so satisfied and why am i still in search? am i still hoping for a miricale? god send me the way.. show me the plan you have for me.. it's already july. half a year of 2006 has already passed.. and damn. july = getting older. ARGH!! see.. no wonder i am emo monster this month. be afraid. be very afraid of elaine. bleh.

and ouch. i am sleepy. my knee ligament is acting up. stomach hurts. and damn damn. i am not skinny yet. then again. when will i ever be skinny? haha.. and i forgot to mention.. today is "be bimbotic" day!! yeepie.. sing this with me.. i'm a bimbo i'm a bimbo.. i'm a B-I-M-B-??? huh??

peace out!~!