it's only a week before he comes..
everyone around me is asking me if i am excited, if i am looking forward..
well in a way, yes of cos i am excited, i am looking forward.
but there is still a part in me that has fears - the infamous "what ifs"
what if - he finds me too fat
what if - he finds me too boring
what if - we have awkward silences
what if - he has wierd habits
what if - he realises i am not who he would want to be with
what if - i realise he is not someone i could be with till the end
what if.... and the list could go on...
but to me now, all these what ifs could only happen, if and only if i want them to happen.
i know i should put all these what ifs away and just enjoy the 2 weeks that he will be here, finally physically.
then again, would it be this physical presence that will make it harder when it's time to say goodbye?
the counting down does kinda irks me at time. i think both him and me have been patient or growing our patience since february.. now is finally - it. the "test" is here.
so am i excited and looking forward?? - you bet i am :) just with a tinge of worries that come along with it..
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