officially. PMS. period.
i was feeling all fucked up and pissed off on sat.. seriously so bad.. i just get so irritated.. regardless what u say. i am angry.
i didn't complete any studying stuff this weekend. i am freaking pissed with myself.. it's like why am i going out when i have so much things undone. it's not right. but on the other hand.. i know i have to take a break cause i am feeling tired and weary. on the verge of giving up. tears in my eyes.. thought of running away is getting stronger. the thought of stopping everything. damn. that's so what i wanna do now. ESCAPE.
i am afraid. i can only just talk freely in my blog. you know at times.. when u just wanna talk and have someone just to listen.. and make no comments. yes. that's what i need now. i just wanna talk without having to listen to the other person's problem. i know that's selfish but i need it bad. it's like.. i just need someone to listen. and know what i am feeling. but the crappy thing is i don't even know what the hell am i feeling. Lost? maybe.. i just wanna stay away from everyone. sad to say.. even my family and loved ones. i just want to be a loner. at least for now. i am so tired in school. having to catch up all the time. the finishing line is so far. and i am dying soon from asthma. that's exactly how i am feeling now.
do you even understand? do you even know i have tears in my eyes daily now? do you even care too? sometimes i wonder why.. sometimes i feel that way. i just want to be left alone.
a suggestion could be to be gone missing for a week.. no contact with anyone..
bleh. i think it won't work. argh. i am crazy. call me kukulaine. cos i am.
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